Friday, October 25, 2013

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Quick Update - ok it turned into a long update

Jon:  Work is going great - he got a raise a couple months back and its great to feel appreciated (and have them do more than just say it).  He's still young mens president and last month they took the priests up to Palmyra, NY.  Jon said it was strange walking the trails that he hasn't been on since he was a boy and his family was in the pageant.
  Jon is also the ever-present Daddy and Husband.  I'm so grateful for how much of himself he gives to all of us.  Last night he was making David laugh!  David's first smile and first laugh have been reserved for Jon which makes me happy.  Its sometimes hard to have Dad miss all the "firsts" when he's at work.  

When Jon leaves at 7 in the morning, Lily can see him from her window (and she is usually awake, just playing in her room waiting for me to come and get her).  He'll walk out to the side walk and wave good bye.  Well, on Sunday night Jon had to go to a meeting, and he warned Lily before hand because she gets nervous when he leaves and she isn't planning on it.  But, he forgot to wave to her and she was so distraught.  It was kind of sad, but also sweet to see how much he means to her.  I ran upstairs to rock her and comfort her and then we decided to call Daddy on the phone.  Jon was on the line and trying to say hi to Lily but she just said, "Bye Daddy.  Bye!  I love you," and laid down relieved.  When I was about to leave she said, "You take good care of me Mom."  Anyway, we all depend a lot of Jon over here and he does a great job of helping all of us feel safe and secure and loved.
This is an older pictures...but its the best one we have of the duck pond where we try to walk to twice a week.
Lauren:  As for me, I'm finding the adjustment to three kids is pretty stink'in hard - I'll just be honest.  Elder Holland's talk from General Conference was partly for me (and many others I'm sure).  I'm learning to carry the burdens I need to (like taking care of myself and my family and fulfilling our callings) and putting down the burdens that I've placed on myself (such as trying to look like I didn't just have 3 kids in 3 years and making sure Lily never throws a tantrum).  I also want to say that even though I've been struggling with post partum depression, I'm so happy for our situation.  I've always thought that "weary not in well doing" meant - "pretend like it isn't really that hard" or "don't admit if you're exhausted and worn out."  But today I was reading in the Book of Mormon and these verses stood out to me:

 And it came to pass as he (Nephi) was thus pondering—being much cast down because of the wickedness of the people of the Nephites, their secret works of darkness, and their murderings, and their plunderings, and all manner of iniquities—and it came to pass as he was thus pondering in his heart, behold, a voice came unto him saying: Blessed art thou, Nephi, for those things which thou hast done; for I have beheld how thou hast with unwearyingness declared the word, which I have given unto thee, unto this people. And thou hast not feared them, and hast not sought thine own life, but hast sought my will, and to keep my commandments.  And now, because thou hast done this with such unwearyingness, behold, I will bless thee forever; and I will make thee mighty in word and in deed, in faith and in works;

I realized that recognizing that hard things are hard does not displease the Lord.  And that if I am just going and trying and going and going and trying and trying - I am fulling the scripture:

Wherefore, be not weary in well-doing, for ye are laying the foundation of a great work. And out of small things proceedeth that which is great.

So, in other words, I am happy (and for anyone who loves me and may be worried, I am getting some professional help and its really try not to worry about me too much but prayers would be welcomed).  My life is peppered with incredibly beautiful moments, like when Lily told me I take good care of her, or when Suzy smiles and says "ta da!" with a grin from ear to ear, or when David is just waking up and I see him recognize me and then a beautiful smile blossoms on his face, or when Jon gives me a hug right after he walks in the door every evening.  

Lily: Our little Pancake (Lily's nickname Jon gave her) is as sweet as ever and the most adorable big sister.  I was just putting her down for a nap and David was smiling at her from my lap and she was delighted.
 She is so thoughtful and looks out for her siblings (like making sure that Suzy gets a cookie too and Suzy gets her milk).  She is so faithful and sweet, having recently overcome her fear of "big blue giants" (a character from a PBS show Super Why).  She's also been loving Daniel Tiger's Neighborhood and I like it too.  They have little songs in each episode that they repeat again and again.  Yesterday Lily drew with marker all over her face while I was at the table with her - my back was turned and she's a quick one (like any almost 3 year old).  I saw her face covered in marker and which she responded (in a sing-song voice) "When you feel so mad that you wanna roar - take a deep breath and count to 4."  Haha...she'd learned that from Daniel Tiger.  Oh man, I learn so much from her.  I got her to sing it again on a video right after she did it in real time.  She puts her hand over her face because she's a little embarrassed.  
Pictures we took at breakfast this morning.  I usually end up feeding Lily her oats while she's on my lap - she's always loved being fed even though she can do it on her own.  This is her "baby face."  

This is another shot of Lily making her baby face.  I was trying to imitate it but obviously I can't get it quite right.
Suzy: Man does this girl get cuter by the minute.  She is starting to talk a lot and really be able to communicate...even though its usually only a few syllables at a time.  Its just so cute the way she enunciates everything.  "Get it!"  "Ta daaaaaa!"  "I did it!"  "Dolly please"  "Throw it."  
Yesterday we went to the park across the street.  We were walking up a little grassy area and a lady was there with her 3 big black dogs (about as tall as Suzy...maybe a bit taller).  My girls are afraid of dogs, they don't know what to do around them and frankly, I don't really know either.   So I had them hold my hand and everyone was fine, until we were just passing them and a nice dog walked up to Suzy, but took her by surprise.  Suzy shrieked.  No, I mean shrieked - like the ring wraiths on Lord of the Rings.  I think that's the best way to describe it.  Poor little thing...but it was cute to see Lily trying to comfort her afterwards.  I asked, "Lily, what can Suzy do if she's scared."  Lily answered just like we taught her, "You can say a prayer Suzy, or sing a song, and Jesus will help you!"  I really don't feel like I can convey Suzy's cuteness with words - I'm not gifted enough with writing.  Its her little mannerisms and her personality that is so charming and just super sweet.  She is also loving her big sister role and gives David kisses all the time. 

David: The first half of this video pretty much sums up his life - the second half is Lily whining...which is typical of my life.
He is so cute - learning to lift his legs up (soon he'll be grabbing his toes).  He loves that little tent toy where he can bat at things hanging in front of him.  I saw him grabbing the doll for the first time today.  He's just so cute - I love his shy smile where he raises his shoulders and looks off to one side.  I also can't believe he's only 3 months old, it feels like he's always been with us.

And the fall time here is gorgeous - as hoped for.  This is my favorite walk...not everywhere is a pretty as this...but its only a ten minute walk from our house to get here:
We love you all and miss you!

Sunday, October 6, 2013

"We are a happy family"

It is fun to watch a video of a baby smiling - but it is way more fun to be the reason that the baby is smiling.  So even though I sound a little ridiculous - you know you would too if he was looking at you like that.
Lily - complete with a swim suit, two wands, a special glove a bracelet, goggles and pjs.

Jon had a campout with the young men, so the kids and I went to visit Kristen and her family in Baltimore. 

Suzy holding my cousin Lael

I. Love. This. Boy.
Here are some old videos I just found while organizing pictures.  David was so small - Happy 3 Month Birthday in 3 days David.